Two people
so in sync
so alike
so compatible
but never meet
damned to bad timing
damned to being with other people
damned to what could have been
Is it possible that two people can be placed in this crazy world with a gravitaional pull so strong between them but, never collide. What is it, the factor between us that defies the laws of physics? Denial? Stubborness? How can two people manage to avoid the inevitable? There must be a bigger picture that I am not seeing.
Im happy for who you are now. I’m happy that you’ve changed since our relationship. I’m not gonna take credit for making you who you are today but I hope I was part of the process. I’m glad you know what it takes to keep a girl happy. I don’t feel like I ever asked too much. All I ever wanted was time, affection, and compassion. I hope you find a girl who is worthy of receiving all of that love.
If you were ever wondering, know that I’m happy too. You might look down at who I’m with but I swear on God he treats me like a queen. He’s my number one supporter and I’m his. We were at an event once and he was dancing in the middle of a cypher and I yelled “THATS MY BABY!” and he heard me so he freeezes and stands in the center of the dance cypher and yells back “THIS IS MY GIRLFRIEND Y’ALL,” and he ran up to me to hug and kiss me in front of everyone. I was so shame at the time because I don’t like so much people looking at me but I swear it was so cute. Of course we fight/argue but it’s different with him. We make ourselves accountable for our own actions and we always try to work towards something better and stronger. Sure he doesn’t have a lot of money but moeny was never the main concern. I’m in love with him so much. I just wish my parents saw that because to be honest, he treated me 10x than you ever treated me. Not saying that to diss you but we’ve both changed and grown since.
It’s been almost a year since we broke up and y’all still hit him up. And whenever I try to say anything about how I feel about it, you guys literally just say well too fucking bad because we still like him. How would any of you guys feel if I did that to you guys? The fact that you guys don’t think that there is absolutely nothing wrong with it and you guys don’t care about how it affects me. Just wow.
It’s been a while since I have been on here. So update, me and Isaiah are great. He truly makes me happy. He makes me want to be the best person I can be. He makes me feel like I can do anything. He pushes me to my limits in the best way possible. He never lets me give up on myself. He never gives up on me. I’ve never had this from someone. The glow that you see in me today is only there because of him. I still trip some mornings when I wake up and remember who I have been blessed with. I get it, he’s not perfect. Neither am I. And you, whoever is reading this, aren’t either. But he helps me make all my problems so much smaller. Not in an ignorant way where I would just brush off the problem but he always reminds me that things could be worse and that I am capable of great things and that I can and will make it through everything and anything. I have never been so sure about someone until him. No words can explain how much I want to be with him for the rest of my life. For the first time, my significant other is my homie, lover, and friend.
I always get scared that one day hes gonna walk away but he never hesitates to reassure me that hes not going anywhere. “I knew what I signed up for from the beginning Pelita. I read the fine print. I’m here for it all.” I did’t know someone could love me that much. Regardless of all my flaws he never looks at me any lesser. I can’t imagine myself with anyone else. Honestly truly… I love you Isaiah Darius Lopez Delos Santos.
I just dont know where to begin anymore…
I know ill be fine by myself because I typically end up having to go through shit alone anyways but it would just be nice to have someone.
I told myself I wasn’t gonna go back to my dark place but why does it feel like I’m back here again?
I don’t konw why i always get like this. Everything is fine, then its not, then it it, then it isnt. idkkkkk
Dude. Idk why but im sad..
I have a big heart. Of course I still care for Allen. Bitch had me fucking climbing walls and trying to break into his window. Just know I care. Just try to be happy. I know its gonna be the hardest fight of your life but it will be okay. just dont fight yourself too much.